I feel completely disorganized at work, all of a sudden. Like I have no direction. Problem is, I have no motivation to get things on track. I feel really blah about it all. I think the 3-day weekend coming up will help with that, though.
But in the mean time, it's just continuous blah while I'm in the office.
I still have no plans for the weekend. I'm thinking that I might just get some yardwork done, and paint my shutters like I've been wanting to do. I don't know if I'm brave enough to tackle the refinishing my deck on my own, but who knows what kind of energy I'll have by the time Saturday rolls around, right? :) I have to wash the deck first and then allow it to dry completely, so Sunday would be the big day for the actual slapping down of the new stain/protective coating. Man, it soooo needs it.
Right now, I'm running at minimum energy levels. Really, the reasons for the low energy during the day have been worth it, though. And that's all that really matters. I'm just glad to be in a good mood, and feeling desired again.
It's sort of sad how much it shocks me that men are attracted to me at all. But I think I really, really did a number to myself over the last couple of months. My ego is soooo very sensitive, for some reason, and I'm not exactly sure how to shore it up against certain blows that might happen. I mean, right now, I'm oozing with complimentary actions to help my ego feel it's worth. But when this dries up (which, in my experience, is inevitable...), what will happen, I wonder? How can I prepare for that inevitable occurrence?
And when did I become such a pessimist? :P