I noticed over the weekend (on Saturday, specifically) that it doesn't take much to push me into a foul mood in a very quick amount of time. Country music, a big monetary gaff, and annoying people were what did it that day, but I'm going to start keeping better track of it from now on so I can see what else does it. Not sure if that will help anything, but I might as well try.
Leo surprised me with a gift of dance lessons for my birthday...which I have to be honest, I found a bit odd. I like dancing, but didn't think he did in the slightest. So we have 3 lessons at which we can learn whatever style I want (its a toss-up between salsa and swing, really), and then he said we can join the group lessons to try to get better at it over time.
I really am confused by it, but that's because I thought he hated it so much when we needed to go for lessons for the wedding. It's also tough to drag my ass back out of the house for dance lessons once I've gotten home at night after work...and then there's the issue of us not practicing. Very confusing.
I mentioned to him last week that it might be nice to take some time to go visit dad in the spring if he's still in Northern Cali...it's so pretty where they'll be living, so it'd make for a nice long weekend I'd think. That's when he mentioned his brother's graduation. Sure! I said. Find out when it is...we have to go! It's in May sometime, was all he knew. Eesh...that's when we have tix for John Edward, so find out which weekend in May, ok?
Sure enough, it's the same fucking day. AAARRRGGGHHHH!! Why do things have to happen like this, huh? We really are excited to go to his brother's graduation. I have some latant issues that are revealing themselves to me now that I've let the news of the graduation visit sink in, but I'm trying to deal with them as best I can. (I wanted to go to the same college that he's graduating from, but they didn't accept me when I applied all those years ago. Turns out, I'm having a hard time dealing with the thought of going there to celebrate a graduation that I never had the chance to experience myself. God, their rejection of me was so much more damaging than I ever realized...) But the John Edward tickets are expensive, and I was sooo looking forward to Leo having a chance to see him in person. I've been to see him twice, so waiting a bit longer to go again isn't that big a deal to me. I mean, it's disappointing, but he comes around every year...Leo's brother will only graduate this one time, you know? So, yeah. Obviously that is a HUGE priority.
But now I just need to find someone to buy my tickets. Anyone want them? They're $175 a piece, which is the face value I paid for them. It's on Saturday, May 3rd from 2 - 4 p.m. I'm putting them up on Craig's List in a little bit, but bloggers get first priority, if they're interested in them of course. (I personally think XO should buy them. I'd LOVE to hear his review of the session after attending it. Think it'd be utterly fascinating...)
If I can't sell them, then I'm going to have to miss the graduation. Leo will go for sure, though, and I'm sure he'll have a great time. I can't waste $350, though. I just can't.
Huh. Funny how my neck suddenly hurts again. It was ok for the past 2 weeks, dammit. *sigh!*