It's ok, really. I've rigged up a way to sleep kind of tipped to one side with a pillow stuffed behind me, and that tricks my body enough to let it fall asleep in that position without giving me horrible nightmares/hallucinations that make me want to jump out of my skin to get away from them. (The first night after surgery, I thought there was a small monkey-type beast sitting on my chest, ripping away at my bandages. An hour after I calmed down from that, I thought there was a crane - like one of those ones from a toy machine that grabs toys and drops them down a chute - next to my bed trying to remove my internal organs from my chest. That time, I actually woke Leo up and asked him if there was a crane in the room.) Last night, I slept much better than the first night, and I felt pretty awesome this morning as a result.
That, of course, led to a crash this afternoon around lunch, but it's ok. Lifetime shows reruns of Grey's Anatomy around that time, which is just about the most perfect companion to napping ever. So that worked out.
Then I got up and started the process of trying on clothes that haven't ever fit before. (I went to the doctor today to have my drainage tubes removed, which means I can move about much easier now, and also that Leo will stop gagging when he has to look at me. Hopefully...) Here's what I used to look like in one of my favorite tops...
Here's how I look with just my recovery bra on. Hopefully, this isn't too offensive for anyone to look at. I'm pretty covered up, thanks to the size of the bra, so it's not that big of a deal for me to show it, IMO.
I didn't think to take any before pictures of other clothes, although I sure wish I had! Regardless, I'm happy. I'm in a little bit of pain around the sutures, but it's not bad, really. The tape they had on me seemed to do more damage than anything to my skin, because I'm so sensitive to sticky stuff, and so that sucks a bit. But I'm working on mellowing it all out.
Overall, I'm doing well, and the recovery seems to be going as it should. Now I'm going to go back to sitting around a bit more, and hopefully Leo and I can go for a walk in a bit, if I'm still feeling ok. Thanks to everyone for their well-wishes!