Thursday, November 14, 2013

Suggested modern gift for anniversary year 6? Wood Items. (I'm guessing a "that's what *she* said" joke is a bit too obvious here, right?)

Our anniversary was a few weeks back. It's been SIX YEARS that this man has been able to magically put up with my shit (which I really do understand, in spite of all my grumbles to the contrary because I AM A TREAT, GODDAMMIT) while tethered to me by a binding law, and somehow, he keeps smiling!
We went to Rye for our anniversary dinner this year, and loved it. We didn't ask our server to take any pics of us, though, so we had to do it ourselves when we got home. This photobooth-type result is common for us, as you'll see from another upcoming post. 
My smile is good! His...seems insincere. And also, BLUR.

That's real nice, dude.

Where'd my eyes go???!!

Oh, are we suddenly in 4th grade again, Faith? WTF?

Maybe if we zoom in a bit...goddammit, LEO!

This is sort of sweet, if my eyes didn't make it look like I was being poked in the ass by a steak knife at that moment.


Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Every. fuckin'. time.

Every time we go out of town, I place an online order right before we go.

Yes, you heard me correctly. I order shit online - clothes, housewares, more clothes, a large DESK that came in 7 different boxes weighing anywhere from 18 pounds to 85 pounds separately, etc... - and then promptly leave town for several days.

I wish I were exaggerating. I really do. But I think we have been on one trip in the last year where I haven't ordered something that was delivered while we were out of town. Maybe. I honestly can't remember. (I'm getting old, and my brain is sad and feeble. Which might be an explanation for why I do this sort of thing...)

You might be asking, "Faith, are you some kind of special idiot?"

Yes. Yes I am. Other people have told me so (these people are also known as "the people we have to call to get the stuff off our porch and dragged to someplace safe from the elements and the criminals", a.k.a. our personal trainer/good friend, Alan), my husband has told me so (in a nicer way than Alan does), and even I have told me so.

I'm aware. I get it.

But I'm pretty close to perfect in most other respects, so I forgive myself and move on with life. (Unlike SOME OTHER people, i.e. that Alan guy. He has plans for the stuff I order the next time we go out of town and have to call him for help. Fortunately, we have more friends than just him. So nyah nyah, Alan. SUCK IT!) (And also, I hate lunges...please stop asking me to do lunges!)

One time, Alan had to come to our house to help out with around 25 pounds of bison I had ordered online the previous week. I forgot about how the company's shipments work, and it came the day we left town, too late for us to receive ourselves. So he had to drag the box inside, and then put all that meat into our deep freezer in the basement for us. Sooo, he kind of has good reason for getting mad whenever I do this sort of thing from here on out, I suppose. (But it is still no excuse for making me do LUNGES!)

The desk thing was NOT MY FAULT though. I ordered that thing on a Tuesday, and it said that the estimated shipping date wasn't for 5 - 7 business days. We were going out of town for a wedding that Thursday, but would return the following Monday, so I figured we had plenty of time!

Fuck if they didn't ship that damned desk the following day. Fine, I thought...we'll have to worry about it maybe sitting on the porch for a few hours on Monday, but no biggy, right? I thought that FOR SURE since it was being shipped via UPS Ground, it would take a few days to get to us, and with 2 of those days being a weekend, we would be fine!

I checked the tracking info as we sat at lunch that Thursday to see where the desk was at in its transport process. Yeah, that would be LEFT AT FRONT PORCH at about 10:30 a.m. that morning. (Um, we had left the house about 2 hours before that. We were driving to Indianapolis. We totally could have waited had we known, goddammit.) There were 7 HUGE boxes just sitting on our front porch waiting for us to bring them inside.

So I texted my old boss to see if he could help, but I didn't really expect him to respond or to be able to do anything on such short notice. We discussed whether we should contact Alan, but I knew that would be a terrible plan. Then Leo had a thought, and he called our contractor who had redone our master bedroom. Fortunately, he was close by, and graciously agreed to help.

My old boss did respond after a bit, though, and said he'd have been happy to help, but he was glad we found someone that could assist us.

Anyway, it was a fuck up, but it wasn't MY fuck up, IMO. But it taught me a valuable lesson!

Yeah, no it didn't.

Last week, Leo and I went up to Chicago/South Bend to visit family and friends, and to watch a Notre Dame vs USC game. We left Thursday morning.

And guess what I had done earlier that week?

YUP. I had ordered some stuff online. It was stuff I needed, though! Pink gloves to complete my Halloween costume! Halloween was only two weeks away at the time, and I hadn't been able to find pink gloves ANYWHERE, so I had to get them when I saw them!!! And then Sephora warned me that my VIB status was going to expire if I didn't place an order, so I had to order some makeup from Sephora! It's not like it was just unnecessary stuff!


Anywayyys, we were in a pickle yet again. So I suggested we ask a neighbor for help this time. And he did. And they totally collected all the random little packages that arrived while we were gone, because they are awesome. And while we were away, the car dealership sent me a tin of giant chocolate chip cookies as a thank you for buying my new Jeep from them a couple of weeks ago. So when Leo went to get the packages from the neighbors when we got back last week, he was able to give them a big "Thank You" tin of cookies that looked delicious (but of course, I couldn't eat them, dammit! ::cries:: ), and everything basically worked out perfectly because I am pretty close to perfect, as previously stated, and that's how my karma works out, yo.

This week, we are headed to New Orleans for a fun weekend with our pal Lyn. We're so excited! We head down on Thursday, and will get back next week, and I was so damned proud of myself for not making the whole ordering-something-right-before-a-trip mistake that I even mentioned it to Leo the other day. He was very happy to hear it!

Here's to me breaking the cycle of stupid!!! ::clink clink!::

Side note: Did anybody else pre-order Allie Brosh's book back in July? I did, and I am SO EXCITED to get it! I just got a note today letting me know that shipped. Huh. Better open that email to see when it's due to arr...GODDAMMIT!!!

Thursday, October 10, 2013

And just like that, POOF! I'm better.

It's been a few days since my last post, and it's pretty fuckin' amazing how different I feel this week.

I've been seeing that nutritionist for a little while now, and through the help of supplements and dietary changes, I've been trying to get my hormones and general levels of toxicity under control for the past 6 weeks. Under his supervision, of course. Seeing the hypnotherapist in conjunction with the changes has been instrumental in the work I'm doing.

Last Wednesday, I felt like I'd hit rock bottom. I'd been in the early stage of a cleanse that the nutrition doc put me on, and I was so sad for two reasons:

1. I had weighed myself over the weekend to see if there was any small chance that the changes in my diet (lowered amounts of cals, quite a few supplements, and dropping my intake of caffeine and ditching alcohol all together) had made a difference yet. And it had! I was down 2 pounds after just a few days.

When I weighed myself again Wednesday morning to make sure I was still on the right track, I had somehow gone UP half a pound. And I was PIIIIISSED.

2. Leo and I had plans to go to the dog park for a long walk, and they got fucked up because he forgot about a different appointment he had right about the time we were getting ready to go.

Those two absolutely ridiculously silly issues set me on a downward spiral that involved crying, anger, more crying, some yelling, and some relatively crazy comments aimed at Leo such as, "Why does it matter what I want for dinner? Apparently the world revolves around you, so let's just do what LEO wants to do!" (I also got pissed when I saw him doing the dishes. Don't's just embarrassing for me to explain it any further.)

Anyway, I sent an email to my nutrition doc asking him WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME??? Because the emotions I was feeling...they were not normal, yo. He called me pretty quickly, and said that my liver was releasing a lot of anger in response to the cleanse. He wanted me to drink more water, work out more, and just keep at it because it might last another few days, but would eventually subside.

I acted like a pouty child whose favorite toy got accidentally thrown away for the rest of that day.

And then Thursday, I felt 100% better. It was so weird.

At this point in the cleanse, I'm down to 1 week left (it's a 3 week cleanse), and I feel fantastic. Much more in control of my mood, my body, my cravings...everything. I'm eating anywhere from 1100 - 1300 calories per day, and I am not hungry. It's good stuff, too. All fruits, veggies, proteins (with the exception of pork and shrimp, which are apparently made of evil, according to the guidelines of this particular cleanse), fats...and at this point in the process, I can have small amounts of alcohol, which are easily fitting into the total calorie count without causing any problems. (However, it makes me feel a bit icky when I drink it, so I'm keeping it minimal right now.)

Feeling this in control is awesome. Especially after the meltdown I had last week! All of your encouraging comments were so helpful and appreciated, so thanks for listening when I just didn't know what else to do.

I'm pretty broken, but I'm not a total lost cause. Yay for having found the right guidance, finally!

Wednesday, October 02, 2013

Always soft and squishy in the middle.

I left my job in mid-August so I could pursue a better, healthier life for myself. I gained a fair amount of weight over the last 5 years, and have been fighting against it more than anything else all of that time.

Actually, I've been fighting against it for my whole life, but it just wasn't as defeating to me as it has been for the last 15 years.

I've been working out with a personal trainer consistently for the last 3 years. I've been watching my diet in what I felt was a productive way. I've been getting therapy in various forms...psychologically, physically, chiropractically, acupuncturally, attacking my brain, my body, my hormones, my fucking CHI.

And through the help of the hypnotherapist that I started seeing about 5 months ago, I realized that there are holes that I'm trying to fill. I'm trying to fill them with stress, food, alcohol, and noise.

Which is all creating a bigger hole, really.

We're tying things back to my childhood. We're finding a lack of closure for my grief over the loss of my parents. We're finding connections between the stress that I experienced in my job 10 - 12 years ago that might have contributed to the hemifacial spasm.

My stomach used to take the brunt of my stress...IBS, colon and intestinal issues were all the result. And once my stomach couldn't take anymore, it started going, literally, to my head, and probably is the source of those cluster headaches.

My hypnotherapist recommended I see a doctor she's worked with for a while for help with my nutrition, so I started working with him 5 weeks ago to heal my gut, deal with my hormonal imbalance, and help my body get balanced again.

We have to do all of that first, he said, in order to get me back to a point where I could lose weight.

I don't want to not believe him...I'm trying to be positive about it all. But it's very, very hard. My brain still isn't where it needs to be to continue down this path in a healthy way. In fact, just when I think it might be, something very small throws me back off track again, and causes a depression spiral that's hard to fight.

I'm in that spiral today, so I thought I should write about it and share what's been going on. I'm hoping it helps me get a hold on something. I'm hoping it can help me get back to a sense of the positive. I'm hoping it can reverse the spiral, and give me back that feeling of control that I've had for a majority of the last month.

I need to stop hating my body, y'all. I really, really do.

Thursday, September 05, 2013

The Completed Master Bath

It's been quite a while since I added any kind of update to the completion of the construction that we did on our house, and I don't really have any kind of excuse for that delay except that I wanted to take good pictures of it all before I posted about it. And that took time.

I left my job mid-August, and that involved setting up interviews, hiring a new person, and training that person...all surprisingly time-consuming activities.

And then I had a wedding to go to (in Indianapolis...and we drove).

And then I went to visit the Twin in California.

So here I am! Back to work in my basement, updating websites, trying to create a Facebook page for my business, and ready to share the pictures I took (and then had to edit) of the new bathroom.

Ready? HERE WE GO!

As you might recall, our old bathroom was set up in an odd configuration of random small spaces and doors, and it was a pain in the ASS. (If you don't know what it looked like, feel free to go check it out. I wrote a post about it, of course.)

It now has one entry door, one closet, and a whole lot of awesome design choices. :D

This is a good picture of the entry to the bathroom space. Main entrance is a barn door, and then a linen cabinet on the left over there, and Leo's vanity is on the right.
Leo's vanity is different from mine in that he doesn't need a bunch of drawers for any stuff, and he wanted a medicine cabinet to keep his toiletries in.
The linen cabinet is gorgeous, and has TONS of space. We use it for linens, toilet paper and Kleenex storage, and still have room left over to put stuff in. It's pretty fuckin' awesome.

The other side of the bathroom is where the tub is at. My vanity sits next to the tub, and includes a makeup table that has a light up mirror inside of it.

I love the herringbone pattern we did with the tile on the floor. It cost a few extra dollars to do it this way, but it was worth it!
Our roof in that part of the room has a slope to it, so we took advantage of the extra height, and added a wood panel element to the slope. And then I had a pretty chandelier hung to add some femininity to the space, since it was all wood, and straight lines, and boxiness.
The teak wood surround shelves by the tub are just awesome. The carpenter that worked on this project was fabulous. I can't say enough good stuff about that guy! Very detail-oriented, and his craftsmanship will help the elements he built for us to last about forever, I'd imagine.
I haven't taken any pictures of the closet because it's always messy. I want it to be tidier than it is, but I just haven't achieved that yet, so maybe by Christmas, I'll have some good pictures of it. :P

Let me know what you think! We love our new space. I can't wait to get going on another project in the near future! Watch out, kitchen...I have a feeling you'll be next!

Friday, August 09, 2013

Whatever you heated up in the microwave is done now. You can go back to your desk with it. BUH-BYE.

Ugh. There are a couple of dudes in a common area near my desk that have been having the loudest, most boring conversation EVAR TO BE HAD! for the past 20 minutes now.

Don't they have desks? And inside voices? Seriously, the one guy is sooo loud!

It's been a little over 6 and a half years now that I've been here at my current company, and as much as I love it (and I really do!), I still do not understand about 3/4's of the things that are said by my coworkers. They are a smart bunch of folks, and they are lovely coworkers to be around, mostly because they are very understanding about my inability to grasp most of the shit they're talking about on a daily basis.

But also because they are just good people.

Next week is my final week here. I put in my notice at the beginning of July, and said I would be willing to work until mid-August in order to help them train a replacement for my position, if they wanted. They did...she starts on Monday. We'll spend the week together making sure she's comfortable, and has a decent grasp on the random tasks that she'll be in charge of for the next portion of her Executive Assisting career.

I, on the other hand, am burned out on the admining thing right now. I'm inspired by the Twin, and her continued ballsiness when it comes to starting business and pursuing a life that she finds worth living. She opened her new shop, Tea Leaf of the Loose, in July, and is working on building a clientelle, and dealing with all the ups and downs that come with starting a new business. And I'm jealous of her tenacity.

I'm also inspired by my dad, and the business that he built all those years ago, and everything that has come of it since then. And by my brother and sister for how they've taken the reins, and are managing the company now that dad is gone.

So I started feeling like I should put some of my OWN tenacity out there! I've been working on my business model for a little while now, attending a seminar to help me learn what I should do in order to become a home stager and interior design consultant for the Kansas City area, and then doing all the things that you gotta do to get that business up and running properly. I've received my LLC status. I'm filing the proper tax paperwork. I've created a webpage (it isn't done yet, but feel free to go check it out), and ordered business cards, and plan to hit the phone/email ciruit with local realtors starting next week.

It's exciting. It's scary. It's a little overwhelming.

But I think I'm ready. Wish me luck!

Thursday, August 01, 2013

Not a children's toy, I swear.

Do you guys know what I do more than anything else during the day?
This is sad. But you know what? I KNOW I’m not alone on this, so don’t you try to tell me that I should feel bad about it! Don’t!
I am on the internet for a majority of the day. THAT is what I do more than anything else. 
In the morning, I log on and head straight to a message board that I’ve been a member of for several years. There are a precious few of us there, and they are who I consider to be some of my best friends in the world at this time.
Then I visit my email accounts to see what’s going on there, and check Facebook to see what’s going on there.
Then I head to another online community that I participate in daily. And then I read through the blogs I enjoy reading.
Lather. Rinse. Repeat. All day long.
When I go home from work (because that’s where I’ve been during all this time I’ve spent online, dontcha know), I rest for a bit, I eat dinner, and my husband and I spend the night generally watching TV or a movie together before I go to bed. And even during that time, I’m frequently checking on my phone for Facebook activity and emails that might’ve been sent to my Yahoo account.
I sometimes remember back to the days in my early 20’s when I was working in quiet office jobs here and there, and the down time was excruciating. We didn’t have The Internet As We Know It back then, so my free time was spent staring out windows, writing emails, on the phone with friends/family, or writing nonsense in a Word file that I kept on whatever machine I was on at the time. Blogs apparently existed, but I didn’t know what they were or how to find them…I didn’t hear about blogs until around 2003/2004. And then I thanked the good gods above because I was SAVED! Saved from a life of boredom and gloom!
I’ve resisted getting involved in other social media sites, because blogging took up a fair amount of my time, already. Writing and reading kept me busy enough in what downtime I had, because of course as I’ve gotten older, work has gotten more intense and has kept me busier.
But then a reunion was happening, and I wanted to get involved in the fun leading up to that, and WHAMMO…I was on Facebook.
I still resisted Twitter, because I honestly didn’t get the point of it all, and when anything important happens on Twitter, I hear about it in the news stories I read, so…meh. But I kept reading some really funny Twitter posts that different bloggers would put up now and then, and I realized that it would be yet another source for me to head to every day in order to get a dose of entertainment.
And I DO enjoy being entertained.
And so @faithsista was born.
Suffice it to say, I spend a lot of time online. And because I am inspired by many of the items I come across throughout my day while hopping about on the ‘net, I think long and hard to come up with some of the stories I tell, and the tidbits I share. I love getting appreciative feedback on the stuff I post. I love it even more when people ”get” what I’m talking about, and respond in kind. It makes me feel closer to them. I hope it makes them feel closer to me.
In a non-creepy way, I mean. Don’t get too close to me, or I WILL sick my shihtzu-poo on you!
I know I’m not the only one that responds with a giddy joy when people seem to “get” me. I know this is a feeling that loads of people love to have. You are lying if you say you could not give two shits. You COULD give two shits, and it makes you HAPPY when you see people agreeing with your fab flotsam, dammit!
I am so on to you, people.
And while Facebook has the “likes”, and Twitter has the “retweet”, someone out there came up with an even BETTER way to show appreciation for the time we all spend online wracking our brains for the fun, the bizarre, and the awesome to share with the people that we connect with. (I know that, like being thin and pretty and rich, it comes naturally to many folks, but I am not one of them, dammit! BEING ENTERTAINING IS HAARRD!)
So if you haven’t heard of Koomkey yet, consider this your introduction, bitches. Your introduction to the awesome of being rewarded for your fab flotsam.
With Koomkey, people can now send you cash as a way of thanking you for your time and hard work you put into your Twittering. With a couple of quick clicks, you can say to your fellow Twitterer/Internet Citizen, “I think you are awesome for saying what you said/making me laugh/being so fucking fabulous, so here is $.25/$1/$5/$10…”
You can be paid to be entertaining and informative! Just like you always dreamed!
Or maybe you didn’t dream about that. Whatever. (You freaky alien…)
Check out the website…you can log in with your Twitter account, and at the top of the home page, you will see a “How It Works” link that will tell you all about, you know…how it works.  You don’t need to create a separate login to “join”. It’s just like being on Twitter except you can now send and receive CASH through your account.
So go forth. And now that you know my Twitter handle, you can send me money to say thanks for pointing out Koomkey to you. Thank you! Your welcome!
Disclosure: I am related to the person that created Koomkey. I'm also an investor. I was asked to write this post and share it on my blog with you all in order to help spread the word. Which I was happy to do!

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

I don't know if this is a big deal, or if it's just "meh"...

...but The Bloggess is following me on Twitter.


Guess I should start tweeting more now, eh? I'm up to all of around FIVE tweets thus far, and I've been a Twitter member for a month, I think. Sheesh!

Friday, July 19, 2013

Follow-up on the whole Mirena thing...

So it's been over a year now that I've had my Mirena implant that keeps me from getting pregnant, having babies, generally losing my mind, etc, etc...

I received an unsolicited email today from a law firm in St. Louis that apparently is actively trolling for customers by searching out people who have the implant, and it reminded me that I've never really followed up on how it's going to have the lil' ol' piece of plastic inserted in my lady parts.

I'm here to report: all is well!

::waving at St. Louis lawfirm:: You can go away now! Thanks for your "concern".

I recommend this birth control option 100%. It's better than the pill, it's better than condoms (unless you're single and polyamorous or sewing your oats or currently a sophomore in college, or what have you, because in those cases, even with the Mirena, USE A CONDOM!), and it's better, for me, than getting pregnant! WOO!

I haven't had a period since maybe May or June of 2012. And even then, it wasn't much of a period.

I get a little bloated every now and then, and even had some cramping in the uterus area last week, but some Advil and a little exercise generally clears that sort of stuff up. No idea why.

Other than the occassional bloating and cramping (which, let's be honest, could be due to something completely unrelated to the lady parts! The internal works of the lower abdomen are a vast and complicated mess of tubes and pulleys, as I undrstand it...), I've had no side effects.

I'll likely keep on using Mirena until I hit menopause, whenever that happens.

So, there you have it. Use Mirena if you want to avoid babies in your womb. 1 out of the 1 bloggers from this blog agree.

(Of course, I would recommend that you discuss all of your options with your gyno or family practitioner, so you can decide what would be best for you. I'm just one person, people. Don't go on what I say, alone! That would be downright silly...)

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Nothing else to do, so I guess I’d better write!

It’s a slow day at work. So slow that I’m watching the clock, and I cannot believe it’s only 2 p.m. right now. ::primal scream::

I’m moving on from this job in about 3 weeks, though. We’re hiring a replacement, I will train them as best I can, and then I will be off in the wild blue yonder searching for my soul’s place of happy.

It’s hard leaving a job that I’m so content with. But the boredom has been growing over time, and my astoundingly amazing intelligence level (or something like that…) has reached its wit’s end with this type of activity. I love my coworkers and my bosses so much! They’ve really made what I do a pleasure over the last 6 and a half years, for sure.

But I can only pretend for so long. The discontent has been growing for a while, and it’s contributed to lots of little issues in my life, not the least of which is the weight that I’ve gained over the last 5 years.

So I have plans. “Important plans!”

I’m going to start taking steps toward staging houses, providing furniture rentals for parties, and generally just designing awesome spaces. It’s going to be hard work, I know. But hopefully it will be fun, and fulfilling.

But for now, I watch the clock…2:45 p.m. and counting…

(Don’t think I’m crazy stupid for having started writing this at 2 p.m., and not finishing until 2:45. Ironically, some work stuff popped up, and I had to go take care of that between starting and ending this little post. Yay! 40 minutes were used up with work stuff! :P)

Monday, July 01, 2013

Before & After: The Master Bedroom

We've officially moved back into our master bedroom/bathroom/closet, y'all. So I can officially do the Before & After photos of the bedroom for you. 

This is what the bedroom looked like soon after we moved into the hosue in 2011.

It was a large space with a lot of open floorspace that was basically being wasted. So in the remodel, we donated a bunch of that open space to the bathroom and closet.

The bedroom is smaller now, but is still large enough for the couch at the end of the bed, and our old dresser, and our king sized bed.

The bathroom should get finished up this week (crossing fingers!), so I'll have Before & After photos of all that, too, when it's complete.

So. happy. :)

Friday, June 21, 2013

Today, you can see the floor...

Yesterday while I was at work, they cleaned up the space, and took up the paper off the floor and...I can finally see a light at the end of this tunnel, y'all. 
Ignore the white "barn door" that's hanging in that photo. That's the temporary door, until Rustica Hardware can get it's crap together and send us the actual door that we ordered, ooohhh, 4 weeks ago, now? I think it was? Anyway...::roll eyes::

Little finishes have been installed finally. Like the towel hook that I bought from Anthropologie.
 And the knobs on the vanities and the linen cabinet...

 ...also from Anthropologie. (We went with the bubbled glass knob, and they are perfect!)

The shower is just waiting for me to christen it with my soapiness...
 And look! We installed the bubbles drain cover that we got from Designer Drains, too! SO CUTE.
Today, they were putting the furniture back together and all that good stuff.

I think I get to sleep in my own bed tonight. IN MY OWN ROOM! :D

I might cry when I see it all. I just might fucking cry.

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Almost to the finish line! (Not in a "running" kind of way. But strictly construction-wise. I never will understand why people run when they aren't being chased by a zombie, or a bear, or something.)

We're almost done with the construction! Yaaay! Pretty soon, it will be just me and Leo and the puppies in the house.

Not that it hasn't been delightful dealing with our contractors. They have all been wonderful to work with. But it will be so nice to be able to walk around naked again without totally offending people.

So I thought I'd do some "before" and "after" photos to show the differences in our bedroom, particularly in regards to the fireplace. This is what our room used to look like, with the brick, and the HUGE hearth, and the ceiling fan...
And this is what it looks like now. I actually initially wanted them to just cover it all up, and give me another wall to put shelves and art and stuff on. But we were talked out of that by our contractor's partner and convinced to just cover the brick, remove the bulky hearth, and we swapped out the old gas log set for a gas insert that's a bit more modern, and which we can run via remote control. AWESOME.
Also, the ceiling fan wasn't a favorite part of the room, so we hung a chandelier there instead. It needs to be lowered about 8 - 10 inches, and then I'll be a happy girl!

Here's a better look at the old fireplace and it's outdated ickiness: fireplace. LOVE the wood trim and shelves. Those look so awesome, and totally fit our style!
The new floor is being protected by paper right now as they finish up the details in the don't think that we chose "brown paper" as our new choice of flooring. ;) This is the new entrance to the room. We have a TV that sits flush with the wall, and we'll likely put a narrow table of some sort under it eventually, just because it kinda looks odd there right now. Just...a TV in the middle of the wall, and shit. If I'd planned better, we'd have made room for built-in shelves there, and had all kinds of pretty drawers and shelves and stuff to go around the TV. But I didn't find that idea until after we'd built the wall. So we just went with a TV, and we'll work around that.'s a little weird when you're looking at that wall on it's own. But we'll get it balanced out, for sure. This is the new entrance to the bathroom. We're still waiting on the barn door to be delivered and then it'll have to be stained. It's taken a ridiculously long time, we think. But, hey! We got the hardware to hang it on! So...that's good. I guess.
I cannot tell you enough how much I love my new shower. I can't wait to be naked in there, dammit! (That's totally normal of me, by the way. You're supposed to be naked in the shower, so don't go thinking I'm all weird for bringing up the naked thing again.)
The vanity cabinets have turned out SO NICE. But it's taken a bit to get them fully installed due to the meticulousness of the carpenter. I can totally appreciate that, but MAN, it has been hard to wait! I'm expecting the knobs to be installed today, hopefully. My mirror should also be installed today...
 This is Leo's vanity area. I'm actually a little concerned about the 2-light fixtures we chose for the wall. They look...wrong to me now, somehow. We have plenty of lighting in the bathroom, thanks to the fabulous electrician and his fabulous pot light installations. So I though we wouldn't need any more than the 2-light fixtures. But maybe we should change them out for 3-light fixtures instead, sometime in the future. We'll see.
 My tub. 'Nuff said.
Lookitallthedeepness! I can submerge up to my goddammed shoulders, baby. It's like I'm Princess Kate, or some shit!
We're going to be moving our stuff back down there this weekend, so hopefully, they'll be really close to done after Friday is over. Once it's all completed, I'll update again. With better pictures that are taken with better lighting. Promise.

Eeeeeeee! So excited to move back in!!!

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Updated pics of the construction...tomorrow!

The construction is still happening in our bathroom/bedroom. It's almost done. Almost. Very close. But there have been a few unavoidable issues that have popped up, and slowed things down a little.

But I'll get updated pics tonight, and post them tomorrow, for sure. It's looking so good, y'all! Can't wait to share!

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

I'd like some time alone, without my body.

I feel tired, run down, and generally icky right now. I don't know why. Maybe I need more rest. Maybe I need more vacation time. Maybe I need more cake.

(Please, God, let it be the cake thing!*)

I've been seeing a hypnotherapist for a while now, trying to learn how to change my brain when it comes to food. It's hard work. I know that sounds stupid, but changing the brain is a really hard thing to do, when it gets right down to it. I see my therapist once a week, and then outside of therapy, I am supposed to listen to my hypnotherapy CDs, work in a workbook, and read through a companion guide to the program.

But I've lost track of listening to the CDs the way I'm supposed to. The weekly appointments are something I still look forward to, but kind of see as a bit of a chore because of the "homework" I'm supposed to do, but haven't made time for.

And I seem to have gotten fatter since I started the program.

I feel mentally fine with this, a majority of the time. Sometimes, I try on a dress that I thought might work, and it doesn't, and I go, "Meh," and get a little mad about it. But I move on quickly.

I haven't cried about being fat in a while. So that's a step in the right direction, in my book.

But lately, I really have noticed that I'm not devoting myself to the changes I want to make the way I planned to initially. And I'm wondering why that is? Because I totally want to make the change.

And that's something I need to talk to my therapist about, now that I see it in writing like that, so I guess it's good that I wrote it out.

I've learned a lot about myself (and others) throughout this hypnotherapy process, though. That's been pretty invaluable to me, overall. My brain is more powerful than I ever gave it credit for. But training it is as hard as it's always been.

I need more power behind my convictions, dammit. Is that something I can find on eBay?

*I don't need more cake.

Tuesday, June 04, 2013


::excited screaming::





 I'm trying to calm down, I really am. But HOLY. SHIT. you guys. It is such a beautiful closet. SO AWESOME!!! I highly recommend California Closets, btw. They were quick and easy to work with, and even though their office/showroom location was a little hard to find in the business center it's a part of in Lenexa, I can forgive them that because AAAAUUUUGGGGHHHH....AWESOMENESSS!!!

Monday, June 03, 2013

Where The Construction's At

Here's the latest about the bathroom/master bedroom remodel at The Smith Household!

It's still not done.

HOWEVER, this all makes sense. We aren't mad at our contractor, and he isn't mad at us, and he's acting like a grown-up, and it's SO MUCH BETTER than the last time we went through something like this. So. much.

Anyway, we had a meeting last Friday to discuss the stage we're at, and to find out how much over budget we've gone, and when we should expect to be done, etc, etc...

...and we should be done by next week.

...we are at a good stage, and everything is on track the way it should be at this point.

...and we are a reasonable amount over budget. Which can be alternately labeled a non-heart-attack-inducing amount. (I'd been waking up in the middle of the night, wondering what kind of numbers we'd be looking at once the contractor got it all pulled together for us. He'd promised something 3 weeks ago. And then we went on vacation and I tried to forget about it, and I STILL woke up in the middle of the night thinking about it, and then finally, last week, he gave me the news. And I'm still alive! Yay! )

So a big thing that happened last week was that the carpet got installed in the closet. We picked a reasonably priced option from Home Depot. It was soooo soooofffft. That was key. We'll be walking around in there barefoot, and shit. Carpet must be soft! And then we also added on the more expensive, thick carpet pad. And basically, it's now softer and cushier in there than any of my beds in college were.

The puppies love it, too!
  Here's a shot of the entrance to the closet. That's Leo's vanity by the door. Countertops and hardware were installed last week. You can turn the water on, and everything!
 The tile we picked for the floor turned out GREAT. And that's a pocket door for the entrance to the closet.
 Anyone surprised that we went with a blue color for the bathroom? You shouldn't be. We're kinda crazy about blue. ;)

This is the focal wall above my vanity. It's kinda hard to see it in the light I was taking pictures in, but there it is! It looks great. I'm hoping that with the mirror installed, and the lights and stuff, I will be even happier. Right now, it's hard for me to focus on anything other than the lines that natually occur when you put stone mosaic tile up on a wall. Some of you might be all, "huh?" But then there are some of you that are saying, "oof...yeah." I'm in that camp. I will love that wall, though, if it's the last thing I do!
 I was adventurous, and I put up wallpaper in the toilet closet. It covers a whole 20 sq ft of space. I KNOW! Hold me back! I'm going wallpaper krizazy!!! :P
 Here's a better shot of the design on the paper. It's perfect! The other walls are painted a shade of gray that compliments the darker tone on the paper.
Today, I should go home to a half-finished closet, as installed by California Closets. And hopefully the wood tub surround has started to go in, because THAT is something I am very excited about. I hope this all comes together the way I dreamed it would, y'all. Because if it doesn't? I might just scream a lil' bit!

Thursday, May 30, 2013

Vacation: Where things are pretty all the time

No doubt about it...dude has a nice ass.
 Leo and I just returned from a 13 day vacation in Oahu. We stayed in Waikiki for the first few days, at the Moana Surfrider - Westin Hotel. Which is a lovely hotel, and I say you should stay there if you go out to the island for a visit ever. The beds are soooo comfy, the staff is nice and helpful, and the location can't be beat.

This was the view from our room on the 17th floor of the Tower Wing. It was gorgeous!

It was hard to sleep in past 8 or so those first few days, because of the time change, and the 2nd morning we were there, I got up and saw a huge amount of surfers just sitting out and waiting for the waves to come carry them away...
 However, the thought did cross my mind that perhaps a lot of those people were just sitting out in a quiet place, escaping the noise and annoyance of their families that they left somewhere in Honolulu for a while. Can't say I blamed them!

This was how Leo and I renting an umbrella in the hotel's private area on the beach, and having someone bring us food and drinks while we peoplewatched all day long. Delightful!
 I bought some flowery hair clips from the local drug store, since Honolulu + bangs = NO. Leo found them helpful as well...
 One of my favorite features of our hotel room was the "Toto Washlet". It was a toilet with a built-in bidet system, and between that baby washing my ass whenever I wanted it to, and the salty, salty water of the Waikiki "pool", as I liked to call it, I barely had to shower while we were there!

Ok, I showered daily, but still. This was awesome!
A few days after we arrived, we checked out of our hotel, met up with Leo's parents, who had been staying on Molokai for their first week on the islands (this was their first trip back in 35 years, so they took a lot of time off to re-explore and visit places they hadn't been to when they lived there back in the 70's), and then we all drove out to the North Shore on Oahu together. Stopped through Haleiwa Town for some lunch... 
 ...and then continued on out to Pupukea to grab some groceries before heading to the house that we'd rented for the week.

Sometime on Wednesday, or so, Leo and his mom were playing cards, and I decided to gather the fallen flowers around the property to make myself a lei. I was a lil' drunk, and I felt oh so preeetttyyy!
 I felt that the tiki in the house ALSO needed to feel pretty. So he got the lei when I was done with it...

We named him "Kiki"
  A week with the in-laws was...a little challenging. But the house was perfect, the location was GORGEOUS, and we really did have a great vacation with them, all said and done.

Our last day in town, Leo and I went back to the Moana Surfrider to hang out on the beach, get in one last swim, and eat and drink at the pool bar before we had to head to the airport to catch our 9 p.m. flight. It was a perfect day, but a few little showers moved through, and gave us a rainbow as a parting gift!
We love it there. It's where Leo was born. It's calm and relaxed and just entertaining enough for folks like us.

We WILL be back!